:: taz-mania ::

:: Saturday, July 26, 2003 ::

the bling bling...
well, gonna get married some time. had a nice dinner and exchanged engagement gifts tongiht. I got a real nice ring, aragorn's ring from lotr. gave him a crystal ball in a silver circlet, with a silver chain. had some good food and drink, then had to head home to sleep for work. you all will see it soon.



:: Robert 5:19 AM [+] ::
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random thoughts at 5am...
why do people think I am stuck up? had this guy tell me he thinks I am cute and knows I am taken, but that I am far tus stuck on myself, aloof, and snobish. gee, maybe it isn't me, but you that has the attitude. and if you lost it, I'd talk to you.
why do I have no energy any more? want to get back to rugby, jsut can't seem to drag my ass off to it.
will I ever have the things that will make me happy, otehr than the BF, or is that enough?
will I ever have a real vacation, with no surh, and no dread to go back to work?




:: Robert 5:02 AM [+] ::
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I don't want to grow up...(serious thread coming here)
been thinking about growing up, growing old, and all the associated mores and what not. I know I am fairly responsible, mature, and all that, but then I look at my life, and realize that I have two degrees, a lot of potential, yet am stuck in a major nowhere job. I feel that I need direction in my life, and need to finally come out of the home, and be a real adult. but at the same time I don't want to. I like the relative safety of what I have. right now I am thinking that I need to decide where my life is going to go. should I go back to school, and get a real, useful degree, and will only do that if I can get an internship, or similar position. I do not want to go through what i have gone through with the other degrees ( not getting a job, or getting a real shitty one because I didn't make the "connections" I neded to). so, that is what I am doing. taking stock of my life, seeing where I want it to go, and as it were going from there. no more just letting life take me where it will. time to sieze the rudder and control this ride. so, hang on folks, it may get bumpy from here on out for a while.



:: Robert 3:22 AM [+] ::
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life imitates bigotry...
here in the liberal wilds of nova, it seems that bigotry is still running rampant. this story was related to me by a co-worker, who also happens to be gay. seems that a new family unit has moved into the building a few weeks ago. they come down to the front desk, and start off by saying how much they like the building, and their apartment, but... seems they have a small problem with a flag their neighbor is flying. it is a rainbow flag. and the clincher to me is this: the husband said "we would not have moved in here if we knew those kind of people were here". now I do not own a rainbow flag, do not have a rainbow sticker on my car or any of that crap. yes, I do have the rings from wehn I first came out, but they are in a box, and have not seen the light of day in years. but if I lived near them, and had heard this story, I would be out buying lambda rising out of every rainbow sticker, flag, wind chime, etc. that they have. and putting it all over my balcony. jsut how I am. not gonna flaunt it, but when pushed, will sometimes shove it in a conservative's face. and not in a good way either ;)



:: Robert 7:05 AM [+] ::
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you can never go home...
well, soon it will be a reality for me. oen of the things I did on this long and drastic journey home was to clean out a bunch of stuff as my parents are selling the property, so soon I will no longer have a place to call home, or at least the home I grew up in. the trip up was rather uneventful. just took forever due to traffic in conneticut. guess everyone was going to see martha in jail or something. did see a cool tailgate on the way up. at the top of it, he had written "it's a big ocean" and at the bottome was something like "can't we all get along?" and all across the back he had all the different fish thingys for religions, even the darwin one. cool sentiment. too bad it will probably never happen.

the family time was good. spent saturday cleaning out my stuff in the basement. sunday was the family reunion. I knew about half the people there, but could not remember names to save my life. some of my relatives are really strange. liek the one who talked about her little girls, and later was told that they are her cats. I call my cat my baby, but not to relative strangers. adn she could not remeber who I was. but then my aunt kept messing up names left and right. probably the last tiem I will see any of them. not really close to that side of the family. it was all my dad's relatives.

the drive home was slightly shorter, but still a long time. I have finally regained feeling in my butt. keeping my foot on the gas for all that time, really put my butt to sleep. I even took out all the keys, wallets, and whatnot to keep the feeling, but it did not work. was nice to sleep in my own bed last night. no squeaking of springs, and all that. well, back to the grind now.

in other news...seems there was a hiring freeze on with that job, so I won't be leaving any time soon. but will keep my eyes out for new opportunities.

ttfn



:: Robert 2:15 AM [+] ::
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hey, nothing too serious at this time, just wanted to say...go here for a laugh. make sure to follow all links.



:: Robert 12:41 AM [+] ::
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it's 2am, or thereabouts...
adn I am completely bored out of my mind. really don't feel like reading. have visited all my websites, and looked over the new stuff. god, some days I just hate this job. but then I guess everyone has days like that. so, just a bit of a shout out ot my peps. congrats to jimbo for getting half his throat out (tonsils) and glad to hear he is doing much better. consolations to goat, sorry to hear you had to go to yet another funeral. got to get the family out of the "family" business.
to dan, hope things get better at work for you, jsut as I hope they do soon for me too. you will have a great weekend this weekend. I know it. and to all the guys (and gal) in the d&d group, sorry I'll miss the game this weekend, but I know you will have fun. hope to hear about the arizona trip at some point there mark. myra...more ficiton my way???

so, till later,
ttfn



:: Robert 2:26 AM [+] ::
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weekens past and future...
well, 4th went ok. nothing exciting to report. spent most of the weekend either in bed, or on the couch. my tummy has been infested with deamons, and they randomly want food, then decide once they have it, that they really don't want that food, so I feel like it is about to be revisited. have not revisited much recently, but still not feeling great. got a dr's appointment on the 22nd, so gonna have a long talk about this with him. it is jsut not cool.
still nothing on the clearance end, but the guy jsut got back from vacation today, so not really surprised. hopefully tomorrow. if not, will call on thursday.

this coming weekend, driving home to mass. it's been a while since I drove home, hope I don't get lost. got a family reunion thingy going on sunday. so, going up for that. also going up to do a bit of spring cleaning of all my old stuff so when the folks move, they don't ahve to take it all with them, not that they would anyway, I think. so going ot be bringing some of it back with me. I really need a longer vacation, but this will do for now. be nice to get away for the turists, and all the crap fo dc. but will be back soon enough. hope to be newly employed bty then, so the note I may try to get from doc, about no longer working this graveyard shift will be a moot point. but we will see.
ttfn



:: Robert 1:08 AM [+] ::
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hmmmm...
been a quiet few days here. Michael got a new car this weekend. and it looks like our insurance rates will be going down with the addition of the new car. speaking of cars, I am getting sued by this guy from an accident last september that I was in. without going into details, suffice it to say that his car was the least dammaged fo the 4, and he is the only one suing so far. well, see wht happens with that. seeing as how I make crap money, and don't have any property, it will be interesting if he does not settle with the insurance company. he'll be trying to get the perverbial blood out of a stone, unless he wants a percentage of my debts. got pelnty of those ;)
anyway, not really mcuh else going on here. jsut work and sleep. same stuff different day. oh well. ttfn.



:: Robert 2:08 AM [+] ::
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