:: taz-mania ::

:: Friday, March 28, 2003 ::

life, the universe...

ok, so lately I have been in a funk. not just job wise, but also just not wanting to do anything in my off time. I have this great new dvd, gundam seed, well, it is a couple of weeks old now, but it is in Japaneese. I just have not had the concentration to sit and watch it since I need to follow along with the closed captioning to understand it. but, that in itself is a problem since it is a literal translation, and you then have to decipher that to get the meaning of what they are saying. I think I finally understand the reason behind the funk. my parents are selling off the land I grew up on, and it is affecting me to think of that land and the housees going to someone else. my cusin is supposed to be getting the house I grew up in, but I am going to try to get my parents to sell it to me, and I will let him live there. his rent will be the upkeep, and enough to pay the taxes on the property. I just think it will be better for me to reserve a part of my past, before it is gone. it is funny how something so seemingly small will make someone go out of kilter.

in other news...

had lunch with Daniel today. it has not sat well in my tummy. I have decided that I just can not eat at the chipotle near his office any more. I get an upset stomach every time. oh well. live and learn. I am working 3-11 tonight, and so far it is pretty quiet (knock on wood). other than that, not much. oh, check out the egyptian god test. it is real short. and kinda fun ;)

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:: Robert 8:35 PM [+] ::
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What Egyptian Deity are you? go to:the quiz!

:: Robert 10:51 PM [+] ::
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I hate my job...

I think my boss is on crack or missed a does of meds or something. on monday, she writes an e-mail about how we should be taking cre of the concerns of the residents regarding people parking in the fire lanes, then on tuesday morning, after I did something aobut it, she lays in to me about how we are not to remove vehicles from the fire lanes because tehre is not enough parking for the reidents. ok, so which is it? do we aleviate their concerns about people parked in teh fire lanes by movign the vehicles, or do we just say to hell with it, and let the cars be parked where ever? well, after spending a rather fitful day trying to sleep, I am now going by the opinion that chaos shall reign, and let them park where ever they want. fuck it. it's her job not mine when the fire marshall comes for a spot inspection, and finds them there. so, right now I am in fuck em all mode.

in other news...

I am kinda pissed by all the nonsense coverage of the war. I mean I want to know what is going on, but do we need the regular broadcast stations to nightly have 2 hour special reports about nothing? I mean if there really was something to report, like the chopper that was downed, or that we had killed sadam, then yea, fill the airwaves with the stuff. but if there is nothing new to report, then why interrupt normal broadcasts to cover shit. all I got to say, is they better run all the episodes of the shows I like that have been interrupted, or heads will roll! only two more nights of 11-7 then off for a couple of days. I am gonna need em.

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:: Robert 12:22 AM [+] ::
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late night fun...

went to nation(s) last night, and it was interesting. I now remeber why I don't go there. it was full of clones and wannabes, and jsut not my scene. but it is good to go everyonce in a while and remind yourself why you don't do something. I had a fun time with Daniel, Corey, and jsut dancing and letting loose.

in other news...
I am worried about our troops in the middle east, but at the same time, I hate that every time I turn on the tv, it is nothing but coverage of nothing news about the war. the media does not know what is really going on, but they try to sound as if they do by bringing in "experts" to tell us what might be happening despite the lack of actual news. well, it seems to me they should not unduly worry the people and loved ones back here in the states unless they have some real news with substance to report. but then that is just me.

I had a quiet weekend other than the clubbing and the news. was supposed to play d&d today, but did not feel too hot after last night. so just stayed in bed, and watched the cable chanels, as they were not interrupted. that's about it.

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:: Robert 11:55 PM [+] ::
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protesters, war, and the ilk...

well, it has begun. we are now officially at war with iraq. I just hope it is quick, decisive and that we have done the right thing. unfortunately, we will not know that till much later. and by then it may be much too late.

what is really irking me is all these liberal whiners who are protesting the war by shutting donw the dc metro area. do they not realize that the only thing this is doing is pissing off the regular joe who has to get to work? they are not affecting the president, they are not affecting the senators, they are not affecting the congressmen, they are not affecting the generals. they are only succeeding in pissing off the people who they want to support them. so, a note for future generations or future protests...call, write, or visit yoru represenatives in congress, protest in your own neighborhoods. don't disrupt the lives of ordinary people trying to make a buck and work hard for it. it is jsut plain rude and does not help your cause at all, at least not iwth me it don't.

work has been pissing me off today too. gee, can you see a pattern here? everything is conspireing to just piss me of. good thing I am not a powerful entity, or I would just waste it all. but, work... over the past month, I have gone in with high temperatures, work 16 and 12 hour shifts becaues no one else seems to be able to come in or do them, and I seem to get no gratitude for this. I put in two weeks cleaning up a mess left by someone else, and then get told I am not experienced enough to handle the job, only to find out it is being filled by someone who has never had property management experience. all of this I have put up with in the hopes of moving up and getting out of here, but today's events really pushed me over the edge. I had asked for a couple of days off in particular, and I was told that I was not getting that day off. well, that just set me on fire. I screamed, yelled, ranted, raved, cried, all that. then I sat down to eat my soup, and try to calm down by watching murder by death. it is a funny movie, and let me laugh a bit and calm down. now if only I could play it here for some of the residents ot calm them down.

well, the drama begins, and with all the freaks and crazies, it will probably only get worse. so, hopefully...

ttfn.
:: Robert 9:45 PM [+] ::
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what to say, what to say...

things in the world get weirder and weirder, but it still goes on. so, it looks like we might go to war. I hope not. not because I oppose it, but because I hate seeing life lost because of some meglomaniac. we complain that saddam is beign a bully to his people, but are we not also being a bully by foring ourselves on them in much the same way that he has forced himslef on them? waht is the mien from camelot...not might makes right, but might for right? and is what we are ding right? we do need to end his reign, but do we really ahve the right to prop up someone else in his steed? have we not done this in other places, and other times, only to have it come back and bite us in the ass? is not this condemnation by the likes of the al quidea for us interfering in their ways not exactly what we are doing now? will not ousting sadam not give these idiots more fuel for the fire of intolerance they are spreading? and is it really worth it? things we need to ask ourselves.

I slept most of the day after an early dr's apointment that forced me to get stuck in the traffic around dc cause by smoe idiot farmer protesting tobacco subsidies or some such rot. seems he has a tractor and explosives. meanwhile, every yuppie in the metro dc area is adding to the need for oil and whatnot by siting by themselves in their suv's idiling on the expressways since they are not going anywhere. if they had commuted, or used metro, they would have cut down on the amount of traffic, gotten to work quicker, and probably be a lot less stressed. I was jsut coming home, so I did not have stress over getting someplace soon, but the guy behind me sure had stress, he kept honking and reving his engine. crazy.

so, I finished the book last night. it was very interesting thought experiment on the origins of the masons, and how they are linked ot the templars, as well as how the current cahtolic church is founded. cool reading, and it is far too complicated to go into here, but I do recommend that if it is a subject you might be interested in, pick it up. the title of the book is the hiram key. tried discussing it whti michael, but he is too grounded in the church's dogma to accept that anythign about it may be a misunderstanding and not really the truth, but a fabrication to supress the truth, or fiction made up to explain facts that just don't make snes to someone who did not know the system. kinda like if we somehow lost the ability to make and engineer cars, but could still use them, how we woudl probably over tiem create a story of how they came to be to put the unknown into the known and our lives. like I said, deep thoughts, and not really somethign to discuss here I think. so with that...

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:: Robert 3:48 AM [+] ::
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it it a full moon, or am I just getting hairy?...

Moon phase is at 99% today. things at home were rather tenuous, guess it is the moon. or at least it could be partially the moon....the term lunatic oringinally refered to the belief that the moon held sway over someone's mental capabilities. sometimes even in this day and age, I think it still does.

it is st. patty's day. the day the pagans were driven out of ireland by that busybody st. patrick. they conviently changed it to snakes in the church history, but it is a reference to satan, or temptation, as depected in genesis by the snake tempting adam and eve away from the right path of god. now it is just another excuse to get drunk and beligerent. as you can probably tell, my mind is elsewhere, so I am gonna stop blogging right now. maybe will do some again later, tell you all about this interesting book I am reading about the masons, knights templar, and early christianity.

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:: Robert 11:43 PM [+] ::
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you can tell it is a saturday night or the kids are back in town...

so, spring break must be almost over, the parties and the noise complaints, are back in full force tongiht. this means it is going to be a long night. I am not looking forward to it. finally got all my back issues of Dragon Magazine (and there was much rejoycing) so I have plenty to read tongiht, if I get the chance with all the noise complaints coming in. feel like I am at drama central. though I have not had a complaint in about a half hour (Knock on wood) so, I hope it is at an end.

this mroning, some guy's horn got stuck on in the parking lot. I went down, and it did not ahve a sticker or pass for our lot, so I had it towed. I am sure the owner was not happy to find it gone, but it settled down the residents it was waking up at 6am in the morning on a saturday. oh well, such is life. well, that is about it. other than to say I am looking forward to watching children of dune starting sunday night on sci-fi channel. I hope it is good. so, until later,

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:: Robert 12:44 AM [+] ::
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sleep depravation is not good...

at aproximately, 2 this afternoon, this vehicle in the parking lot across from my apt. building started it's daily round of alarm going off. at least this is when I first noticed it. it woke me up. now this vehicle is parked aproximately 100 yards from my apartment, and I live on the 6th floor. so it is a good distance away, and I had all the windows closed. now this alarm seems to go off if a squirel farts too close to the car (too close defined as anywhere in the northern hemisphere). I was sorely tempted to take out my paint gun and use the vehicle for target practice, but unfortunately I am out of paintballs and co2 for it. but I will get some soon, and then watch out idiot. michael is talking aobut calling the cops on it the next time it goes off. of course, not 911, but the non-emergency number. it is just plain rude, and anoying. so anyway, I only got about 6 hours sleep today.

I am very grumpy, and not feeling too well. had tacos for dinner. the hamburg was not drained well enough, so they were greasy, and I think that is what is causing the tummy upset. oh well. hopefully it will be a quiet night with no loud obnoxious parties or anything like that. so, that is about all for now.

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:: Robert 11:24 PM [+] ::
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random thoughts to begin the night...

ok, was reading dax's blog, and read his strange but true facts. some of them just made me laugh out loud. not a good thing when alone at work.

last night, I was watching the "tvland awards" show. star trek got the "pop culture" award. they had kirk, spock, uhura, and scotty up to accept the award. all are showing their age, but scotty is looking real bad. guess norpin colony did not agree with him. he was helped up on stage by this sweet looking lass, maybe it was just an act to get sympathy. or god forbid, we may have two original cast members up in heaven soon.

finally, at least for now, WHY DO PEOPLE NEVER LISTEN TO ME????

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:: Robert 11:40 PM [+] ::
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the time it goes so slow...
tonight, I just want to sleep. I did not sleep well today. it was too warm in the bedroom, then too cool and bright, it was always one thing or another. so, tongiht, I find it difficult to stay awake. it is 330 in the morning, so half way through this night. the book I brought with me is not enough to keep me interested, si I find my mind wandering quite often. have taken the dosage of caffine and sugar, but it is still hard to stay alert. but I somehow do. in a bit, will go back and finish up the paperwork from this weekend. and just look forward to getting home, climbing into bed, and sleeping the day away. just got to be careful not to sleep too much, or I will not sleep tomorrow night when I am off. though, lately that has not been a problem. oh well. ttfn.
:: Robert 3:35 AM [+] ::
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workin on the night shift...
ok, so I am on the night shift this weekend, and already I hate it. was busy all day, so did not sleep, and now I am at work till 7am. it is going to be a long night. got about 2 hours sleep before getting ready for work, but I think that made it worse. very grumpy now, and the round-ears are ticking me off. one of the front doors is busted, and there is a big sign on it, but they keep using it. unfortunately, I can't lock that door because it seems they did not put in the little holes for the lock to go into. oh well, guess it will have to be fixed on monday. not my worry. I have bigger fish to fry around here. like the fact that ti seems I am the only one to be able to figure out the parking situation. it is not dificult, but everyone is making it so. I got a call this morning to ask me what to do in a situation. oh well, just grin, bear it, and hope that I get a job someplace else soon. not much else to write at the moment. ttfn.
:: Robert 11:54 PM [+] ::
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bad boy again...
ok, so you can tell when I have nto been working, or working too hard because I don't blogg like I should. just seems like there are too many other things to do. mainly sleep. but I had a good couple of days off. got a bunch of calls yesterday from work. I am not even a real manager here, but seems as if things do not get done if I am not here to do them. it can be quite agrivating. but I did have a good couple of days off. tomorrow is the first rugby game of the year. should be interesting. these guys keep backing out at the last minuite, so we'll see if we really play or not. I am betting on the not.

I am working the overnight shift this weekend, sogonna be a long saturday. after a bit of social, I will head home and go to bed. been sleepy alot lately. not sure why. last ngith I went to bed at 10, got up about 830 this morning, but still felt exhausted. maybe it has been the running around to deal with all the car shit the past couple of days. got new liscence plates for the car. it's a cool tag...dthsyth...for duo maxwell's gundam in gundam wing. will take 4 weeks or so to get the plates, but it's all good. not much else going on. just trying to stay up on things, and get plenty of rest. I also just put my blogg up to pro status, so I get all the bonus stuff. just need to figure out how to work it. well, that is about it for now. so, as usual...ttfn.
:: Robert 8:57 PM [+] ::
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ok, so after blogging last ngiht, the head of the maintainence gouys comes around to drop some stuff off. he asks me howcome I am out front again. t tell him that I got booted back out here. he thinks boss lady is kinds nuts for doing it, that I would have done a great job in the office. anyway, he tells me that after I left the training building I was at before coming to towers, some of the folks I worked with over there were talking about me...see it always gets back to me if you talk about me...and they felt taht I was not really cut out for this font desk crap, but would be moving up rather quickly in the company. so, I need to meet with boss lady to see where we can move me to. seems like we never have time when we are both here. maybe I need to firm up an apointment with her.

in other news...not much going on. had lunch with daniel today. saw coach at lunch, and he said htat the team we are supposed to play this weekend may be trying to back out of the game. guess they are just afraid to loose to a bunch of fags...this is the third time they have blown us off in a bad way, and I for one in all for not even bothering with them ever again. we have enough teams in the division to play with out shit like this. oh well. no longer my place to make the call. but I will be ranting about it if they do cancel. that is about all the news fit to print, so...ttfn.
:: Robert 9:36 PM [+] ::
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bad boy, bad boy...ok, tho I like the whold 9-6 thing, it wore me out, and made me not able to blogg. I would get home at night and eat, watch a bit of tv, then fall asleep. not condusive to social life, or other things of the ilk. but, sad to say, I am back on the rotationg shifts again. so that means plenty of time at work to blogg, e-mail, chat ect. the boss lady says she will help me find an assistant community manager position someplace, but feels that this position is too much for me to handle. I do in part agree with her, but also, I haqve not gone bald over the past couple of weeks, have not killed anyone, and have actually calmed the savage beasts taht are the residents of this property. well, I am sure she has someone els in mind, I only hope they can do the job well. it is quiet stressful.

in other news...things have been kinda quiet around me lately. finally got all cought up on my videotapes yesterday. it only took me two weekends. that is the other problem of not being off durring the weekdays, the only time off you have is when everyone else is off. so, it is cool to finally be up to dat eon all my favorite shows. now I just need to sit down tomorrow and watch the shows from tonight...smallville that i missed on tuesday, the one with christopher reeves. and this show that looked totaly cool on the discovery chanel on how they built the pyramids. when I was younger, I wanted to live in a pyramid. not because of any of that new age babble, but because I thought they were cool. maybe someday ;)

well, that is about it for now. so, ttfn.
:: Robert 7:19 PM [+] ::
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